Firstly, I just randomly remembered I have a blog and decided to blog!
And I would like to thank Hui Shan, if you are reading this, for the nice, yummy dinner at your house!
Didn't have a home-cooked meal for so long and it's really satisfying to have soup in a meal, my favourite part of a meal!

Secondly, I hope after this post, I will be feeling less stress, a stress even me myself find it ridiculous I am feeling this way.

Worrying about if I will get a job, and yeah that will only happen about 1.5years later.
Seriously? There will be uncertainties in life, and why am I harping on this? I don't know. This stubborn brain of mine decided that if I think about this and get upset over it, I will be able to get a job 1.5 years later.

Worrying about getting an internship position for the summer vacation.
I know this is rather late, considering others started quite early applying for positions. I wasn't really affected by it, since when one of  my acquaintances mentioned that she was applying (fellow chem student), I was thinking is it necessary since I don't intend to work in chemistry related jobs. But yours truly likes to compare with others. And partly, I decided to suddenly ponder over the likelihood of me getting a job, so I am suddenly paranoid over this.
What happened to the slacking me, the take-it-easy me, the let-nature-take-its-course me.
Because I prefer that me.

Okay, so with the end of this ranting post, which I believe no one reads, I can bury all my stress under the ground and let it never be seen.



I'm only a man looking for a dream
And it's not easy to be me
“In the moment you’re thinking of giving up, think about why you have lasted so long.”
feel like I'm dying.. from occasional sharp pain to constant discomfort..
stop this!!
This book is seriously killing me every single chapter, every single page, every single paragraph and every single word.
It's the best novel I've ever read I guess.
The agony of two not being able to be together when they love each other deeply even after years, because of commitment and responsibilities.
Maybe what has gotten me so upset is that in reality, is it possible to find such a love for someone which lasts a lifetime? And maybe, not even a lifetime is enough for the two. The fact that the male lead (and also, Tuck) could only love one for his life just triggered something in me.
Maybe because I wish I can find someone like him in my life. But it sounds almost impossible.
 Let me just indulge in this young girl's dream while I'm still trapped within the novel.
I wish I could go into the story and change the plot, but who knows what will happen. People picture a beautiful ending if the two had remained in love and not leave other when they were young. Problems do occur, conflicts do arise.

However, this is just a novel.

Just let me believe that there is love that lasts a lifetime, or even longer.
I admire Dawson Cole's love for Amanda. And mostly, that's what kept me on the verge of tears so many times.
It's a torture when they love each other so deeply that they cannot be together. Separation makes the heart grow fonder.. And you can be sure, that's true love.

 True love.
 I hope everyone can find their true love.



Suddenly feeling emotional when I reached the chapter they left each other and I don't know what I'm typing.
Just need to vent my anger, disappointment, sadness out.